"small happiness in daily life always comes without notice"
1) early morning i saw very fascinating sunrise sky from my basement parking. Right before i rush to go to the office, then i gotta stop. watching the scenery and caught myself smiling eventually. even im in rush, immediately i forgot that i gotta be rush to do my routine. this lil things you cant see everyday. sometimes sun comes up brightly, sometimes, sun got tired and comes up dully. i take a moment, to appreciate. to thankful enough for everything. for a good start of my day. maybe that is one of my lucky day.
2) feeling the softness of the blanket. well.. blanket is much important thing to me when it comes for night or more important when i am so tired and drenched with workload. it wrap me like your hug. make me stay in warm in a cold nights. make me missing you more than anything.
3) the package that i was waiting for. most of the times, i online buying because i really want that item. like a book that ive been looking everywhere but non of bookstores have it. the unboxing time of the parcel excites me.
4) well dried tableware that i can organizing them nicely in my kitchen drawer. i do a lot of washing plates yet i really want them to dry quickly so i can keep them away from my eyes. kinda eyesore when i see everything was not keep properly inside the kitchen drawer. that included my housemate's tableware too. hihi.
5) cleaning my room and mop the floor! ohhh... i love doing this. this has been my weekly routine. to have a nice clean room satisfy me. hence, i do the clean to fulfil my satisfaction. make my room smells good is a bonus. lit up scented candle to fill up the mood. this also fly away the stress. always. a good work out too.
6) You. your name pop up thru my phone. that spark my joy. made me smile brightly. a video call from you is always starts with a nice smile from you. blooming my heart and make my night well. a phone call from you cheers my day. your voice. feels like a fav song that calm the heart. it always been you.
7) a photo albums with precious moments. ahh.. i love this. i thank my dad for taking a lot of my pictures. so now, after 30 years old, i still can see my tiny me and wonder. how i look back then when i was little bean. true, nothing beats film and album. when life getting old, there you go escaping the life to go back the memory lane. nowadays, people do that as a hobby or a hype. but i think, back then, people do that because thats the only way to keep memory. to safekeep it and long for it. i hate it when people exploits the original idea. oh well, whats good will remain good even it takes ages.
8) my green plants. as i lived on my own now, i started to pet plants. from 1 to a lot now. filled my room. make up a good mood and give me oxygen everyday. i choose plants that suit me. do more research about how to take care them and 1001 facts about it. yea i do have dead plants too. sad and terrifying. but, im not give up. im sorry for them and learn from my mistake. maybe its not suitable for my room environment. so i do more and more research. which new plant will fit my room. hehe!
9) someone who snap me as his picture. to be honest, somewhere deeply in my heart, i owe you a very big gratitude because of this. i once received my picture in a film as a gift. never in my thought someone take a picture of me. because.. im not even a half of beauty.. yet someone take a picture of me without i ask for it. without you knowing it, it became a very precious one to me. "ohh.. theres someone who see me." thank you. thank you for saw me- as me.
10) a good movie found by chance. i spend my time watching movie when i want to escape from my life for a while. during this pandemic i do that a lot. im not simply just watching it. the movie need to impress me first then i will continue watching it. you will have a different reference about this too. its like. you do you. a good movie will leave you a good scar. maybe from the songs they used in the movie, maybe from the scripts that are memorable, maybe from the places in the movie that brings you to the end of the story. thats.. my kind of movie.
11) being alone but not being lonely. this is one kind of level that you will looked for. in future. in present. alone but not lonely. its a delightful feeling- when you know you are not lonely. because i have you, my family. sometimes, my fake friends. but these days.. its kinda lonely and alone. rip my heart slowly. i shed tears. begging Him. desperately.
12) clouds and sky. been living for this for my whole life. fluffy clouds and clear sky. reminds me of you. everyday. sometimes you can see a very well shaped clouds. funny shape. and sometimes, sky looks very in not good mood. i stare a lot. from my windows- silently.