i.. dont know how to put all these into words
im speechless
and this is too pain
to handle
to talk
to think
pain.
one thing that i always wanted to avoid
but, always lingering with me
i.. feel like i want to die
and disappear
they said, its good. u no hurt more later
it just same, later or not, it hurt
i cant find myself smile anymore
because it hurts too
i dont deserved to smile while im not even happy
i dont deserved to live when im not even close to happy
my heart...
i feel sorry to my heart
beating fast, uneasy feeling, more pain,
insecure to the max, scared, empty..
im sorry im not able to help my heart
i also crashed into pieces
where im not sure im able to pick up them back or not
we shall let them in pieces right?
dont pick up
dont heal
just break
just die...
thats the end and thats the only way
its gonna end.
